Happiness required… All other applicant do not apply
01 Feb 2011 Leave a Comment
Last night while talking to my father I told him happiness and faith in God will get us through the toughest problems in our lives.. I added taking one day at a time and not worrying about things is the way to achieve some form of organization so that you don’t turn into one ball of worry and loose sight on what is important…. After being told many times that life with children is tough I had enough…. I fight hard to remind myself that this challenge of parenthood is not impossible. Maybe as a teen mother I thought that this was going to be easy , now a 22 year old woman I see things different. But I find that being confident in my own self is the only way that I ever got past a lot of the stuff that was bringing me down… I think I hate it most when people tell you something is impossible, while in reason it is not. Again I sit here disgusted by human nature as we judge and opinionate everything we can find wrong with our fellow man… So if it was up to me I would ask everyone to keep their applications of negativity and their judgment cards to themselves. Happiness is required and faith is a must!
I think i lost my touch!
30 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
I woke up the other morning after sitting up with my little boy who was sick with a cold virus and thought to myself; I am loosing it, my looks that as a teen used to mean the world to me now mean nothing as I get up in the morning… Mind you I look like something between a Wookie and cousin It!! I normally smooth my hair and put it in a rubber band just in case the day was going to be a messy one… Normally I stumble into the kitchen to fix the morning breakfast with a half grunt to welcome and say good morning to the other occupants of the house… By the afternoon not even coffee can fix me… Pregnancy hormones kick in ( yes we are expecting!) and I am yelling back and forth at object to move the heck out of my way… By that time my daughter has to throw in the ” your funny mommy” and the ” your silly before it is all done!! I look over at her and tell her that someday when she has kids she will do the same thing that I do… Mind you the kids curse has gone through the house since I am staying with family until I get a new place to live yet again…. I warned my poor sister not to have as many kids as fast as I did because at the end of the day I am begging for some shred of dignity and sanity… By dinner time I am one ball of stress and looking forward to the kids going to bed because I can sneak in a little time to myself and enjoy some quality me time … Well thats what I thought until morning sickness kicked in after my lil boy gets sick for the 4 th time that day… And at that point I decide ok I am taking him to the doctor first thing.. By midnight I am in bed asleep and dreaming of my kids and I on a tropical beach and then it goes sour by a crab biting me, I wake up and it turns out to be a dog chewing on my bed cover…. So when it cones down to it there needs to be a call line for the mentally exhausted mom who just needs a phone to cry on!!!!
Food Wars: What i think of today’s food
10 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
After watching the movie Food Inc, i am repulsed even to eat my bacon and egg omelet that i so dearly spend fifteen minutes on… I watched how money can waste what is naturally ours! Instead of waiting for nature to make its perfect product we speed its growth for personal gain so that fast food and large companies have to meet their goals for the year! It sickens me to hear how a poor mother looses her child over a simple fix! I hear how our own Government is making sure that these USDA people don’t get money since they get paid to keep quite… tell me people are we not poisoning ourselves!
Only twenty short years ago food inspection was stricter than it is now… meaning that now things like E coli , salmonella and staph can be in our foods and until someone becomes ill we just assume it is safe to eat? I cant imagine what would happen if one of the people on the food board here in the US child, spouse, friend or family member came down with it and saw what they are doing to the country… I think it sickens me that i have to listen to the news stories on children and adults getting killed by something that well in my mind should have been prevented anyways.
Another thing that rings my bell is the fact that fattening food are cheaper for my children than the whole food that their little bodies need! I cant believe that we are so dense into not seeing that in a few short years all of our children will have some sort of health problem and we will all surely kill each other with the bad choices we make! I cant believe how it take me near 5 dollars to by a head of broccoli and then i can buy french fries, hamburger and a soft drink for the same price! Do you know what is in your food, most of the beef from the hamburger is mixed cows, not just one, it is hundreds! I guess it doesn’t matter to people. I am going to go to a farmers market from now on, I am going to somewhere where i can sit there and know what the cows where fed and what water and fertilizer was used on my veggies and fruit! I am making my own bread and my own foods! I am going to be smarter than the rest of you fools!
I guess now i am ranting and it feels good…. Food companies watch out you pissed one mommy of pretty bad and i hope….i really do hope you know i am tired of paying for your products and wont be supporting your business anymore! Oh BTW thanks USDA for the fact that i got food poisoning from tomatoes back when they where recalled since then my gut has never been the same! You need to get your act together!
The Real Christmas: What should be celebrated
01 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
I remember as a child i never lacked of anything as far as presents… In Fact i think i was a little spoiled at the time. I always remember making Christmas cookies with my mother and that one video i have of the ginger bread house we made… and well i tried to decorate. I remember the smell of my Grandmothers house where so many turkeys and the hams where devoured and where to many time our wish lists where filled. Where we sang about Jesus and his coming and listened to hoped for the new year!
Now that i have children i look back on all these things and enjoy the love and life that we have shared through the years, It seems what i remember more is what we talked about and what was said! I cant really remember what was given to me on my 6th Christmas or what i was doing, but i remembered the drive over to Grandma’s house to eat a wonderful lunch and see my aunts, uncles and cousins!
Now that it is getting close i am reminded by store’s and friends that it is time to get the decorations out and the tree up… But is it really about the trees and the decorations or is it about the time spent with each other and the family all being together. Despite what has happened and what each other thinks of the the other… at that time we all come together for one reason only…. to celebrate someone who gave his life for us and saved us all…. we celebrate his birth and life! Jesus is my reason for Christmas…. what is yours?
Coming Back!
30 Nov 2010 Leave a Comment
I have been away for awhile and well it is great feeling to be able to write again and well feel human…. The Long three month break has done me a lot of good and well i am glad to say a lot of life changes has happened! I look forward to being back in the groove and as always let me know what you guys hear see … and let me know if something rings your bell and it is worth sharing!
the struggle with weight: my story
03 Sep 2010 4 Comments
In 2006 i was a beautiful young 18-year-old girl with a body well that could stop guys in their steps and well i loved it! From being able to fit into bikini’s to getting into those short skirts i was the center of attention.. Later that year i became pregnant with my daughter and started off very well. Without a good food source i started to lose weight and decided it was time to leave. When i finally moved into my parents house again i gained tons and tons or weight and what i didn’t know was that i had damaged my thyroid and body and gained too much weight to fast. As soon as my daughter was born i dropped down to 169 and stayed that way, but only for a little while…
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My daughter was about 2 months old when i started to notice that i was gaining more weight… clothes where not fitting anymore and i was back into my maternity clothes.. I was eating like crazy to keep up with breastfeeding that i ended up quitting a month after and i was not loosing any weight no matter how little i ate and how often.. Months went by and it was at my daughters 9 month exam that a doctor felt of my neck and told me that i had hypothyroidism and that i would not lose weight easily … i was destroyed i wanted my body back… They gave me hormones and they made me sick and then gave me different ones and they where ok.. Months went on and i noticed i lost a pound here or there and then one week i jumped back up.. After giving up i decided that i would cut meats and fattening foods out of my diet, eat more vegetables, walk more, drink more water and hope to have a better look on life.
when my daughter got a bit older i decided to get back in the dating world and as i did i lost a little weight.. One afternoon i stepped on the scales and was surprised! 165 YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME! I went to the doctor’s office with my daughter when she was sick and i looked at the scale and it said 163! What all this hard work, the walking and the eating better is paying off!!! Months later i met my fiance and became pregnant few months later and gained back 35 pounds … but with breastfeeding and working out and eating well during my pregnancy i didn’t have the weight issue … Turns out the reason my thyroid gave out was because i was eating all the wrong things… lack of sleep and i was depressed.. With the support of my fiance and family i have lost 31 pounds! I also started on a program called mamavation where women have the same struggle as i did and it has been a blessing! I love these women and would thank them for the encouragement and the discipline they gave me in my daily life! The best thing about this is they are not doing this just for themselves but their families! Teaching our families better habits will save our kids from the problem of obesity! So far my kids have loved the new life and new foods!
I thank the Mamavation women that have supported me through this.. and many wonderful family and friends that kept the battle at home going.. I thank the Lord for getting me where i need to be in my heart!
i reached my goal and more! 135 lbs!!!!
Donate life: A gift of life
02 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
I am reading on and on about babies needing hearts and kidney’s and livers , and it depresses me that when there is so much life to be had there is sometimes no way to stop something. I watched a video today that made me think about how much donating means. If i where to pass today and leave this world i would want someone to have an organ that could save their life. I thought about if my child needed an organ and i was not a match how would i feel.. I cant imagine what parents must feel when they are put on hold for a organ for their child.. and time passes on not knowing what tomorrow holds… Thousands of people hanging on for someone to be able to give that life! I think of the families who loose someone and decided to donate the organs and the people who put it on their drivers license to donate. They are angels who save people… they are a gift from God! Now when i lay my head down next to my son who is sick at night i know that if he needed something that i would do everything in my power to help him! He doesn’t need an organ but there are many kids who do! Donate life please if you are reading… it saves believe me!
Please consider it i just filled out the card in order to be a registered donor!
here is the link
https://www.donatelifetexas.org/TXDear_Secure/Default.aspx
Grrr… i hate packing
01 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
I know that there is an easy way to get this all done without being sleep deprived and cranky! Last night i was digging through my closet and found old cards and letters from times past…. even an ex boyfriend back in the younger years of my life! Laughing at all of this the time hit me and i realized it was 10 pm and time for my tired and cranky babies to go to bed… after one got sick on me and the other finally passed out i was able to think!
How can this much stuff be in a house! I mean really are well all that much of pack rats.. Maybe it just the fact that well i have never really had time since i was here to do a thorough clean! But all in all i have never been one to really be able to sort through things no matter how bad i try! this is part one people! There will be a second post!
mamavation: sorry i have been away so long!
29 Aug 2010 11 Comments
So how are all the woman whom i love so much for supporting me through my weight loss and my goals of getting healthier? I am looking forward to getting back to being here and talking with all of you again and yay maybe you will be able to see my face more often!
As you well know by now i am swamped with the daily life with kids, one who is everywhere and the other who is ill! I know that i have failed the mamvation code and not checked in on all of you and told you how proud i am of you all! I have looked in on you a lot and have wanted to add you all to my Facebook so that if i go poof again because life is getting in the way of being here i promise you i will be able to talk to you there…!
http://www.facebook.com/#!/mkmommy
PLEASE ADD ME SO I CAN KEEP IN TOUCH!!!
so far i have lost more weight with a combined exercise in belly dance and walking at night or in the morning! I am now 135 and wanting to stop here….. i think the new idea for me is to get more toned and gain a bit more muscle back and make me look less like i am a deflated balloon! With my son in and out of the doctor i am constantly on the move! Between urology, cardiology, gastro and nutrition and dermatologist i am worn out! I am exited to say that we have got him eating, him on the road to gain weight and become healthier! i have him on all organic baby food and well so far he loves the homemade stuff better!!! I use the organic for when i am on the move! I also got a job offer and well i need to start working because i am mom-solo! I may have someone with me but i feel single…. lol!
So the menu is undetermined this week and will be up by the end of the day monday since i have to come up with dinner for my kids as well! I am moving to a new area next week and will be writing my blog in a new city so wish me luck! I LOVE YALL and i hope to see you tomorrow night!
With love to all of you
Looking Back: memories of home
27 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
Well all i am moving from the Dallas area…. I have found my stay here to be wonderful and well i will miss it! I am going to continue writing but this time i have a little more motive to continue what almost two years ago i started….. Or thought about starting! I am going to continue my wish to plant and grow things, find better alternatives to medicine and try to get my children in a more healthy environment. But enough of the sad stuff for now! I don’t like to dwell on it !
Memories of home is what i made this out to be because well this area has always been my home and my place where i can look back and say wow what a ride! I have fallen in love here and well fell out of love here. I have got life to the near normal that it is now. Some of me thinks that in the near future i will back here when i grow older and maybe by the time i get back it will be more wonderful and more exiting than last time! I remember the street i grew up on and the people who made it home, i remember that school hall and all the sounds of the students around me and the football games late on Friday nights and the crazy pranks my friends and i played . I remember coming back home as a teen mother who was trying to give her life for her baby and got there slowly. I remember the fountain in which my fiance asked me to marry him at and then the store i bought the pregnancy test at and the convenience store across the street because i couldn’t wait to go pee! I remember the hospital and doctors who help bring my two precious children into this world and home into my arms! Now i am leaving all that because i know that this place will bring memories of its own!
I have had dreams since i was a child about a house and a car and a life that most girls….. well maybe not most dream of… I know i had the idea that i was going to be some soccer mom and have the coolest van and have the coolest mom friends and me and my cousin and my best friend would all have our kids together and we would have this picture perfect life…. but as i get older and remember the times on the swing looking at the clouds and knowing that maybe some day i would be a mom… and all that seems to fade into the daily life i have now… My life is not perfect like i wold have imagined… heck most of my friends are still in college… i am the mommy friend the one when they have problems with something they know there are going to hear my crazy kids in the background and know that when we see each other we are gong to busy chasing those two around..
But now is a new chapter of calling motherhood and a new start and well i promised new stuff, better days and well your asking for it… I will write about everything that i have experienced as a mother , the joys, the sadness and maybe we will all walk away from this one day and look back and laugh and say what i have about my home…… wow what i a ride!
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